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A few nights ago, Krishna, Lindon and I went to Cooper Union to see readings from Howard Zinn and Anthony Arnove's book, Voices of a People's History of the United States. This is where I heard the best reading ever of Howl. It really was impressive.

Yesterday Adi and I went to Housing court. I was surprised that Bernardo showed up and with pictures...all fired up to make a case against 545 W 146th St, Inc. The judge saw the pictures and took our complaints seriously. She seemed very reasonable and fair. We scheduled a trial date for May 29th.

Earlier today I went to the Municipal Archives on Chambers St. to get a picture of the building from the tax files taken in the (30's?). you can see it here.

Now I'm at the library catching up on the blogging and e-mail and listening to a recording of our housing court trial from last November...the one the the LL's attorney dropped.

Peach Bush and Cheney

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Mitch and I went for a walk to the park Saturday and came across a group of people rallying for support for impeachment. We missed the part where they spelled out IMPEACH in giant letters on the grass but were there for this phot0 op. The woman on the right is named Elizabeth. I spoke to her for a while about the organization, worldcan'twait.org.

Later i met up with dave and walked around looking at art fairs and taking pictures of the blooming trees. We ended up seeing Hot Fuzz in times square. It was pretty funny.

now I am in Blessing's HTML class trying to wrap my head around frames.
look

outside the incence store

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I've been back in NYC for about four days now...the rush is just starting to wear off...so far I have met up with Rob, Lindon, Blessing, Adi, Michelle, Krishna, Dave, Harmony, Jake, Samantha, Mary, Curtis, and Socorro...I went to my HTML class, stopped by CCNY, got my hair African braided by a beautiful woman in the library restroom, went to a class at the library about researching Architecture in NYC, saw a free screening of Superbad (which I have to admit was funny), walked by John Hodgeman and co (be still my heart!), ate at a nice thai spot, went to the legal aid office, saw the Barcelona exhibit at the Met and...well...I guess that's about it. This not watching TV thing is working out well.

happy tv turn off week

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Angel, swan, ribbon
butterfly world after all
glass jar summer lense

For the operating system?

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I found this book of Haiku(s?) here and am inspired to write some:


sunny afternoon
arranging, re-arranging
letters and boxes.

Canon Powershot SD600

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I'm trying out this cute little tiny digital camera to see if is better than Dave's Nikon S9...it doesnt have the nikon's cool time lapse animation features but cost a bit less and makes avi video files which seem to work better with my pinnacle editing software than the realvideo files made by my mom's kodak. So...here are some pics Victoria, TX including our trip to the top of the Wells Fargo Building.

one dead nappy headed ho

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Ok...so I am thinking that (until recently) Kurt Vonnegut was a pretty good candidate for "Greatest Living American Novelist" with the possible exception of Toni Morrison, and, um...well at the moment I can't really think of anyone better. Is J. D. Salinger still alive? I really love Geek Love by Katherine Dunn but it isn't as universally appealing as Slaughterhouse-Five. Don DeLillo's earlier stuff is great but not as laugh-out-loud funny as Vonnegut.

Now that he's fallen, his books have to compete with those of Hemingway, Buck, Hawthorn, Bourroughs, Fitzgerald, Melville, Faulkner, Phillip Roth and Hunter S. Thompson all battles I feel Vonnegut would win hands down. Twain was pretty funny. He might have been better or as good.

For readers who were alive in '75, Vonnegut was pretty much the best...non? Too bad he isn't around to bring some humorous insight to VA this week.

Mocking Bird Wish Me Luck (again)

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This is what we are doing in Blessing's html class:

www.geocities.com/jenufra


I had a great week last week...Met with Sylvia Netzer...got an e-mail from Susan Whyne that said she would send a letter of recommendation...finished delivering Las Quince Letras...went to Greenthumb conference at Hostos College...did some yoga...had some VERY spicy pad Thai with Lindon, Jamal and Socorro...cleaned Harmony's computer room with Jamal then went out in search of slide lables and ended up at IPC's Henri Cartier-Bresion(sp?) exhibit and got inspired to buy a new camera.

American Women in Politics part tres

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Ok here are the ten first first first ladies plus a few more names from "Eyes of the Nation". The first ten obviously "happen to be" fair skinned.

1. Martha Dandridge Custis Washington
2. Abigail Smith Adams
3. Martha Wayles Skelton Jefferson
4. Dolley Todd Madison
5. Elizabeth Kortright Monroe
6. Louisa Catherine (Johnson) Adams
7. Rachel Donelson Robards Jackson
8. Hannah Hoes Van Buren
9. Anna Symmes Harrison
10. Lelitia Christian Tyler

Geraldine Farrar
Doris Ulmann
Hallie Flanagan
Marion Post Wolcott
Esther Bubley
Martha Graham
Lucinda Ballard
Gloria Steinem
Marilyn Monroe
Ruth Orkin
Marian Anderson
Lucille Ball
Jennifer Bartlett
Jacqueline Bouvier-Kennedy
Maya Ying Lin
Lesley Dill
Star Black
Rachael Romero
Lucy Long

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Its that time again...I'm thinking again I migh apply to CCNY's MFA program, so I am putting together some photos of the many accumulated pieces of paper I have drawn or printed on and posting them on a blog called PORTFOLIO 2007.

Check it out and let me know what you think:

www.jeannej2007.blogspot.com

My dream garmet!

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There is a tool kilt pictured on the studio 360 web site...it looks like the best skirt EVER!
Spending yet another day with Samantha and Jake...Jake is home with an ear infection. they are being kind of mellow which is good because I am trying to get the three things done that I didn't get done yesterday. (transcripts, cleaning, skirt.)

The transcripts are turning out to be more complicated that expected because osu is saying i owe them money and i can't just pay them i have to pay the ohio attorney general who is not answering the phone...arrgh...sigh...argh!

In other news, I can totally see why house wives tend to gain weight. It is very easy to eat and eat and eat when trapped in the apartment. Usually Harmony's friend Sarah comes over and gives me a break. I'm not sure if she's coming today or not. It is very cold so I can see why she might want to stay in.

Women in american politics part deux

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Ok...this is the continuation of my search in Eyes of The Nation for female names. Where I can find them I've put wikipedia links.

Francis Benjamin Johnston
Frances Willard
Annabelle Whitford
Bertha Kalish
Dina Fienman
Minnie Maddern Fiske
Hallie Quinn Brown
Alice Mumford Cullen
Helen Lynd
Dorthea Lange



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Happy Valentines Day

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Its offically February and I'm feeling 1, 000 times better now since my visit to Harlem Hospital. Watching Samantha and Jake and listening to studio 360...hoping to get three things done...order transcripts...clean my apartment...and finish the skirt I started.

Blessing Marima the teacher of my CS2 class let me take home a copy on my laptop. I haven't really done much with it yet but I'm hoping to use it to put together the 20 slides I need for the CCNY MFA application. Actually now that I think about it it might be better just to take 35mm slides than try to convert the digital...hmmm...well see how that goes. Seems sweetly archaic(sp?) somehow.

All this time with Sam and Jake is exhausting (exasperating). The big challange is not to get frustrated and angry with them. I think I am moving faster in the free time I do have and I am spending almost no money since I eat over here.

A friend asked me to do some research about american women in politics and i started a list of the few women i found mentioned in Eyes of theNation...here is the partial list:

Phillis Wheatley
Hannah Lewis
Juliann Jane Tillman
Charlotte Cushman
Mary Cassatt
Lillian Gish
Sara Iredell
Susan B. Anthony
Mary S. Anthony
Anna H. Shaw
Dorthea Lynde Dix
Elizabeth Boynton Harbert
Martha C. Wright
Jean Brooks Greenleaf
Julia Ward Howe
Lucy Stone
Elizabeth Cady Stanton
Lucretia Mott
Mabel Potter Daggett
Louise Hall
Susan Fitzgerald

In other news...the people at the Colbert Report e-mailed me to say I can go see a taping in March...wooo-hoo!

The History of Animation

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Its Saturday and I am feeling groggy and listless...(sans list?) This may it will have been 20 years since I graduated from high school. That realization hit me (like a...like a...wet terry cloth balloon?) last night. Twenty years seemed some how an impossibly, implausably(sp?)long time. Have I even been alive that long? I guess so...the numbers don't lie.

This morning on WBAI they played Lean On Me our class song...then, Eric Bogosian was talking about 1987 and what a strange year that was. I guess they are doing a play of Talk Radio now. He seemed to be saying it was a bizarre un-play-like play. He talked about how talk radio has changed since then...The advent of Rush Limbaugh and what not. I've been thinking about the history of animation...wouldn't that be a fun class/workshop to teach or attend? I started trying to do some stop motion stuff with coins and Samantha next door who I've been watching while her opera singer mom is starting a new career as an EMT.

I FINALLY got some $$ from the NYS Dept of Labor. (Huge sigh of relief) I was really starting to get nervous as savings account #2, the money I was saving for back rent...drained down to almost nothing. Now I am getting $200 per week from the Dept of Labor...more than enough to live on since I'm not paying rent at the moment. The landlord has yet to serve me with a new petition...looks like they are trying to make some repairs though...Apts 47 and 46 smell like death now...I guess because someone put down some rat poision (sp?)...The smell in 46 is unbearable.

fifth estate, el labrintino del fauno, sticky crepes

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I'm here at the Hamilton Grange Library on 145th...listening to music and trying to get three important things accomplished: Taxes, Grad School Application, and Unemployment Benefits.

This morning I woke up late and tried to make crepes while watching link tv...there was no milk so I thought I could substitute coconut milk...turns out that doesn't work so well...they kept sticking to the pan.

Last night I went to Blue Stockings to see the makers of Fifth Estate Magazine speak...I didn't really know what that was...turns out its an anarchist magazine the title is meant to suggest an alternative to the established media...afterwards I had tea with Mitch then splurged on a ticket to see Pan's Labyrinth at the Sunshine. When I was looking at the movie posters a woman walked by and said, "Pan's Labyrinth is fantastic." She was right. It was fantastic.

fingers numb...computer working...snow falling

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Hi...I'm sitting in Bryant Park using the wireless internet...tis a bit chilly but really not so bad...I hear Austin and LA are colder...which is odd...non?

So today I went down to 40 Rector Street to give my testamony(sp?) about how the police verily barged into Ben's apartment the oter night. I'm glad I went. I didn't even know about the citizens complaint takers thereabouts...the investigator took our stories seperately and yada yada yada...According to their own report, 5% of complaints are found to be justified.

After that Ben walked with me to B&H where I hoped to see about the warranty on my camera...we talked about civil rights and solidarity and got kind of stuck on the subject of whether or not bush and cheney are human...Ben maintained that there is room for doubt...but for the sake of moving on...finally conceeded(sp?).

B&H closed early today...so we got a bite to eat and walked to thebusiness/science research Library where I tried to use the laptop...for some reason they don't have the same wireless connection there as other NYPL's. It was an ethernet wire which seemed to connect to this laptop physically ok but i couldn't figure out how to connect electronically...so here i am out in the cold waiting for Mitch who might stop by in the next ten minutes...although i kind of doubt it at this point.

Saving your life...by Charles Schawb

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Universal Health coverage...Golden Globes...Diabetes...Buy Gold...Kitsune...Dream Girls...Babel...Letters...Flags....Blood Diamond...Nice...you may be eligeble for a free
meter...sick of feeling fat and tired? I'm forty years old...I'm in the best shape of my life....stay indoors...winterstorm in the Heartland...decapitation....oops...pregnant beauty queen...Dr.King...robertsandstofer...snowfrost...citrusgrowers...sean young...devlin...hornbeck...words...point...tall...son...MLK day of service through volunteering...drugs...germs...football...wrestling...euing scarcoma...funding for orphan drugs...surgery...drugs...surgery...drugs...surgery...saving your life...brought to you by charles schawb...bengay...stronger than pain...national reclining month...snore stop...sao paolo...the people in the mini-van...NFC...Bears...Greesy...Grossman...Chargers...LT...disrespect...Martin Luther King Jr....I'm thinking of a number...It's my credit score...You can ind out right now...on the seventeenth...that's trouble nothing is lost liquid crystal television...take on Orbits...always use protection...live from Duhram, NC...the King Center...a moment of reflection...stirring...the legacy...Coreta Scott King...bring home the King Papers...Atlanta is King City...New Ebaneezer...new ehxibit...new insight...IRAQ...hangings with dignity and respect...Casey said...succeed...no guarantees...khalil...Ashley Harder...Congress...Only he can decide...if the people want a scape goat...keep kids safe from preditors...Disney's stocks have surged...cell phone ban...things you are not allowed to do in your car...you can run around looking at house after house...are breathing troubles holding you back? nebulizers...standing by...square dancing...arthritis...thats why we square dance...press box demolished...smoking and driving in CT...Bangor, ME...pick pick pick pick on the smokers...Dan Loafy...Boston...Ice Men...test tube babies...mothers...Cameron...keep wathcing to see how you can save...I think I've scraped rock...bottomed out...hit a new low...started my period. New England now in ice...avoid smoke from the Kentucky River...one worker was slightly hurt...one missing for four days another for four years...where King was Pastor for eight years...students have been sending postcards to victims of Katrina...you're lifting your soul...danceteams, drumlines, and bands...thay saw shawn biking...talking to friends...stockholm syndrome...Devlin...Hornbeck...headline prime...Tecrete...dignity and respect...find out what it means to me...21, 000 additional troups...sustained political suport...sepratist movements...let them slug it out...we will leave behind a middle east that will harm america in the future...overcommitted...more ground troops...the next three to four weeks...4.5 million have alzheimer's...implant an embryo...Daily Express...feeling full...eat 15-20% less food...Shawn Merriman...maybe it comes from the head...coach...engineered a spactacular drive...You give yourself too much credit...how you effect me...51 points...game winning shot...you've got game...wine...fish...by-products...removing grit...how she finally made it out of the wilderness...healthy beautiful skin that lasts....Hyundai Santa Fe...Why does it bother me?

"What, no tip?"

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Yesterday was Jamal's Birthday, so he and Sarah and Dot and I went to Lemongrass and emptied our wallets. Lemongrass at its new location (13th near University) has AMAZING lighting and decor AND there is a great Kareoke (sp?) bar downstairs. (Careful though, the bartender may bite.)

So...the Japanese exhibit and postcard class at 42st library inspired me to do some drawing. There were so many beautiful examples of drawing and printing...and the idea of the new year post card appealed to me. so I think I will spend the day drawing.

We have hot water!!!

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Well today is already turning out to be far better than yesterday...the hot water is on...the sun is out...I think I will go to the class on japanese postcards at the 42nd street library...I did not get up early and go to the Workforce One Center but I can do that next week. Point is: I feel good and I got a shower (finally) and washed some dishes and I am psyched (had some coffee too.)

Also after spending an entire day on freaking MySpace yesterday (that thing is addictive.), I figured some things out and made some MySpace "friends" (I put that in quotes because I really only know Lisa and Dave. I did make "friends" with a guy at OSU who knows Chris Coake and also likes Stephen Dixon (among many others). Now my profile features the wonderful music of my new favorite band tunng. If you notice a preponder(ance?)(ence?) of Jennifers amongst my "friends" it is because I have vowed to try to befriend all jennifer johnsons on MySpace. These are the type of idea one comes up with when there is no job to go to and no hot water with which one might shower and then depart the apartment and it's too bleepin cold to get out from under the blankets...ok I am feeling a little guilty/shameful about spending an entire day on MySpace and trying to make excuses for my self.

ugh....brrr....ugh

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Well...i am freezing as it is finally starting to feel like winter here and the super hasn't decided to turn on the heat. My friend in San Antonio, Lisa asked me to sign up for Myspace account last month which I did then promptly forgot my password...I figured it out today and tried to make the page look less generic but could not figure out how to do it and all the flashing ads were making me nauseous. I did notice that STRAND had a site...which seems signifigantly less nausiating than the generic start up site. I love Lisa but I don't think I have the fortitude to tolerate all the adds long enough to figure out how to make them go away.

If you do have a MySpace page and want to A) be "friends" or B) tell me how to lose the vomit inducing ads please contact me with this information as soon as possible!

resolution number 9

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Ok...Its the second week of the new year...I'm unemployed...I haven't paid rent in over six months...I have an application to CCNY Graduate School to fill out....I'm going to a class at the library tonight called: Mecanografia y Teclado...I'm taking sometime to explore Manhattan and write about it for the NY blog...I just got a letter form the IRS saying I owe them over $200 for some money market account I had forgotten about. I am waiting (still) to see some $$ from the NYS unemployment benefits program...I am planning to continue the Photoshop class through UAW...I'm waiting to hear from the "Made in NY" program to see if I can take advantage of the PA training they offer...I'm hoping to spend some time cooking and dumsterdiving with the NYfreegans...I'm looking for five or ten people who want to start a new art co-op or to find a cool art co-op that will have me...I applied the work at Housing Works and am waiting to hear back from them...I want to re-write my resume and apply to the NYPL...this morning I started mapping a walking/biking route for the west side of Manhattan. There is a warm cat sitting on my foot and it feels really comfortable to be inside on what sounds like a rainy afternoon, none the less I am trying to motivate myself to get up and go outside.

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Hey! I just ran into Socorro's friend Ben at the library. He says all signs are "Go." for tomorrow night. Tonight I plan to see the final show of Strictly Platonic at the pussy cat lounge...I think Dave and Jamal and maybe Lindon will go too.

I can't think of any real news to speak of I love playing with the colors on the blog now.

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I'm back at the library feeling a bit like a monster with my disfigured face but otherwise pretty good...I wasn't selected to be a red hat person at MoMA's Doug Aitken event (que lastima) but life goes on...I am here for a computer class called "Viruses, Hackers, and Spam...Oh, My!" the class was good...a little slowerpaced than other classes but good none the less...I remebered somebasinc things I had been told before about computer maintenance...now I'll go nhome and defrag or scan something.

I am going to try writing for this nyblog...just for fun. Last night dave and I went walking around Penn station so I could have something to write about.

Happy New Year

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New Years Eve was a really good/memorable one...Dave and Jamal and I spent the day practicing a production of a very short play from Incidences (Daniil Kharms) called...oh what was it called? comprehensive research! It was very fun and Dave must have died about ten or fifteen times...every time, I got to check his pulse and pick up his hand and let it drop while Jamal declaired he was in fact dead. Once, a couple came up to us and asked if he was ok. Later we danced and rang the new year in in central park...barefoot (or...well...in stocking feet.) It is oddly not cold here...several natives have confirmed that this is NOT normal weather for NY.

Then we walked around a bit...I found some metal bars on the ground that looked like they had been sawed off of on of the metal police road barriers and was delighted to hit anything that might make a good noise...turns out to be the best...

Back at the library after the interview...I'm not really holding my breath, but kind of...I want the job more now than before the interview...especially since I found out about the hand warmers and walkie talkies...Last night Arnaldo from the freegan-list serve came over and had a chat with Bernardo...That went better than expected as well...Arnaldo was calm and assertive and not intimidated by Bernardo...we drank some hot Airbourne and talked a little about reality and what we want/expect to happen there...Seems we may be able to come up with some solutions. He's an agressively positive thinker (wee bit of suspision about that.) I'll try not to hold that against him.

In spite of the Airborne I woke up with a swollen lip (Herpes...arrgh!) this morning...It has been a long time since this has happened...I want to blame it on the peanuts I ate...ahhh...So...now I have a bit of a head ache and am debating about whether or not to go the the gym.

thank you for the tunng (tuung?)

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I am in love with new york and swimming and the music of Robyn Hitchcock and Venus 3!

http://www.tunng.co.uk/

Get on Up!

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This morning I got up relatively early to go down to the WorkForceOne center on 125th street...at 8:45 people were already lined up outside the Apollo theater...the theater that launched James Brown's career...The were singing "get on up" and dancing trying to stay warm I guess...News vans lined the street...in the orientation for the job center someone said they were still driving the body up from Augusta, GA.

Last night I got a manila envelope from DHCR that I thought might contain the answer to the overcharge question. Before I opened it I thought "oh...god this could be it." This could be my salvation or damnation. If they decide there is an overcharge...I might be getting some money back from the owners if they decide there is not an overcharge or I filed my claim too late then I may be evicted.

It turned out to be a copy of the owner's response and not decision. There was a copy of a lease signed by Chiek Tall and a handwritten statement from (Mr. Nabavi.?) someone...it's hard to read the signature.

It is the last thursday of 2006 and I am back at the library about to use the pay phone to call the unemployment office and see if my claim has been denied or processed yet. If it has that might effect the urgency of my job search.

IF this weather holds up I think I'll go for a bike ride tomorrow.

swimming, laundry, swimming again

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Hi...I'm at the library again...checking the e-mail...on my way to the gym...I wish I had something interesting to write about...I got an e-mail from MoMA about a potential temporary job it is for one month being a sort of usher outside...wearing a red hat...meanwhile this film below will be playing on the windows of MoMA...I would like to do it but it would mean I could not do the "Made in NY" PA training program I applied for yesterday...maybe I will go for the interview and see how that goes.

Still waiting to see what became of the unemployment benefits...Jeanette suggested going down to the office which I did today...they told me to call the hotline...I did find out that they offer all kinds of job services there like resume writing...I think I will try to go to that tomorrow.

sorry about the boring post...oh I did get (finally) a really good (funny) book from serpent's press...its called Incidences by Daniil Kharms...it is very funny if you want to read it after me let me know and I will send it to you.

Doug Aitken: sleepwalkers [30-second trailer]

Artist Doug Aitken transforms midtown Manhattan with seven monumental projections on the exterior facades of The Museum of Modern Art. Actors Donald Sutherland and Tilda Swinton, musicians Seu Jorge and Cat Power, and actor/street drummer Ryan Donowho star in the interlocking vignettes, visible from the street. sleepwalkers leads viewers on a journey through the city fabric, from an abandoned subway tunnel to the neon lights of Times Square. January 16-February 12 Nightly 5-10 p.m. Free

I want you to want me

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I am on my way to the gym to swim off some of this hot chocolate...spent some time on craigslist last night looking at job postings and am feeling optimistic. There is a guy next to me here at thelibrary who keeps muttering about people who come to the library to talk...he just told the people next to him to go back to Africa even though they are clearly American...I think he might be homeless...anyway I hope things this side of x-mas are at least as good as they were before.
Even if you can't eat chocolate.

Good Tidings of Cheer!

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Hi...Merry Christmas...May this day bring happiness and sun and peace and hot toddies...and music and reindeer and good food...and peace (did I say that already?) and happiness and warm fuzzy kittens (unless you have alergies) and laughter...and new friends and old friends...and love and spice...and chocolate and silly girls...and fortitude and patience and unexpected surprises and your wildest dreams fulfilled beyond your wildest dreams...and prudence and giving and wisdom and soap bubbles...and angel kisses...and warm hearts...and love...and insight into the darkest secrets that you have wondered and wondered about...and wonder.

vader vejr weer das wetter le temp

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accepted...can it fit in an envelope trantula look for 22 challenge there is a genius living in here we've got to get him out...ranked most appealing since michael more's fast food nation pree engineered dteel building at the right price you r anthem steel representative will work with you stephen colbert presents stephen coleert. such an imposing presence people fall in line sniffing your butt in their wake...geraald ford was basicllyspanked mondale I never thought I would see the map that red again.until then mr reagan still reigns as the stephen colbert alpha dog of the week.
Borat opened inwwwwwwhahey you ohoh oh oh flushed away random grey is the 2566 theaters ten million dollars. then you had second and third kids ar off school and speculation speculation lowerbabel going wide not a good weekend for that picture all high fives around the world bringing in 15 million dollars even the stars are borat I love borat wacky off the edge I think there is room for all kinds of pictures out there...the real mathew broderick it was just a joy every minute of it erroll barnet was there...happy feet ads adslooking at a penguin that is different i did... one penguing looked a little barry white like its good to have that you can't be talking like this...among los hermanos...red carpet in holly wood social relevance ast food eater before all of this I just want to go to the mall what do you think is going to get people going to this one this is not a hollywood movie this is a movie for the people.violent unknown cast...will his picture get a fair hearing?I get the feeling lindon a) likes me b) i being paid tospend time with me c) didn't love the video because he felt left out of the maling of...d) says what he thinks I want to hear e)nough!It is December 23rd and I'm here at Bryant Park watching the skaters and checking my e-mail. Oddly it is not very cold...the library is closed...there is a guy here on my left talking to me...he says we've been lucky...the sun is coming out...now he's singing silver bells...I guess he a comedian...of sorts...there is a guy on my right reading stephen king with a translating dictionary...also a young woman who looks desperately bored...lots of people here out having fun...Earlier I was at the bank...they were raffling off turkeys...from here I might go to moma or PS1...I got an e-mail from the container store wishing me luck with my job hunt...sigh...I guess I should work on my resume...I think I will apply to MoMA and or the library...got a letter from (545 W 146th street Inc.) Looks like they want to got back to court. I also got a letter from DHCR asking if we had proof of payment and if there had been any major repairs in the apartment.

c'est a gouche...continue a droit...c'est tu droit...c'est on bas...pres...pres d'ici...tout pres...pres de la route...c'est tout pres d'ici...c'est loin d'ici
photo taken with my lovely mini dv camera

oh...rally? on wall street?

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It's wednesday and I'm back at the library...there was a class about job searching on the internet. It was less fun and uplifting than the leo class...kind of depressing really...but I did learn some things that I can use if Dell and Dave can help me get this laptop re-connected.

Tomorrow is supposed to be a big day on wall street. Ben, Socorro's friend who helped me with my housing court trial is going down there with hundreds of friends to protest...Police brutality and imperialism...curtailed civil liberties and whatnot.

People on WBAI have been talking about the trouble getting permits and the absurdity of the law that says that any group of people going anywhere together need a permit to walk down the street together. In a wierd way I kind of empathize with the police in that mobs make me nervous too. But my experience with previous anti-war marches here is that even permitted protesters are not treated well by police. An some very illegal things seem to have been done when police arrested protesters and held them in warehouses for days...not to mention the recient case of excessive force. Someone made a good point about police allowing different things in different neighborhoods...protecting some people and some property more than others. Anyway, I hope cops will be respectful of people and vice versa.

I'll be sitting this one out...except maybe as an observor.

I started my period today...Ugh.

RE: Re...fer...reference

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Hi...I am back here at the public library using the computer after taking a great class on LEO...the on-line library catalog. The class was good. Now I am very psyched about all the possibilities here at the library and in the city. The person who taught the class is also in charge of the job resource center downstairs.

Last night was the begining of my new self inflicted excercise program at the rec center...I swam for about an hour. At first I thought I could swim for two hours but after five minutes I changed my mind. I plan to go back tonight and swim some more. It felt really good. I don't know why I haven't been doing that all along.

I just bought a new swimsuit from american apparel two days ago and not three hours after I bought it I saw an article called "american apparel exposed" in adbusters

On my way here today I started thinking I would end this blog this year and start a new, improved blog for 2007. One with a daily comic. One that I would write more thoughtfully and carefully...now I'm not sure...maybe I could just add a daily comic and write more carefully here...I guess that is not the premise of this blog though...we'll see. Things are in a state of flux. I feel optimistic yet unsure of things.

more on this later.

One good idea the librarian had was looking up birthdays on the NY Times microfisch...let me know if you want me to do this for you. I think it would be fun.

via con dias

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The computers at then Hamilton Branch weren't working and for some reason my laptop is no longer getting a wireless signal...so I am here at the 42nd street branch checking my e-mail...the atmosphere here is really busy...and yet oh so quiet...I love it...the energy is contagous.

So I only have a short time to write...I really don't have much to say...I bought some more of the great fuzzy pink fabric I found last week near mid-town comics...still looking for a job...put in some applications yesterday...today maybe I will work on a resume...the one I have now is hand written.

If you have suggestions or job offers, please drop me an e-mail.

Make Me an Offer

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Ok...so I've made a little resume-esque thingy and I am about to go around littering manhattan with copies of this...work experience: Strand, UHAB, Habitat, Half Price, Drexel...hopefully someone will find me worthy of doing some sort of grunt work for at least eight dollars an hour...36 (did I say thirty-six? I meant thirty-seven...damn...I should be collecting social security soon.) year old college graduate and I have yet to break the 20K mark. I guess because I keep trying to get jobs with perks like free movies, and cheep books. Also, all those years of food service and childcare did not exactly catapult me to the top of any pay scales.

I'm going to try Mid town Comics because Jamal recommended it and the Drama Bookstore because it is close to mid town comics...and it's a bookstore...maybe some theaters or bookstores around Lincoln center...we'll see.

in other news...

Ever since I committed to spending an hour a day to cleaning the apartment it is looking pretty good...Someone still thinks it's ok to leave his dishes and pans in the sink but instead of getting pissed off, I just take them out and put them on the floor...I don't want him to think he can leave them there for me to clean like that.

I have also made a point of talking to the neighbors more. It really helps that Harmony lets me come over and hang out and do laundry and sometimes gives me money for watching Sam and Jake. It help too that we are not paying rent until the court makes a judgement on the overcharge and breach of warranty of hability and needed repairs.

Problems can be solved and we will have a nice place to live in 2007...vamos a ver...(crossing fingers.)

This weekend (I think) there are plans to do a street theater version of the Nutcracker...This should be really fun and hysterical...please e-mail me if you want to do this...bring a tu-tu if you have one.

If you are a prospective employer and you are reading this...Please hire me...I can't spell but I am honest and pretty reliable.

ce journal ne peut etre vendu

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I'm at the library using my laptop...it's so nice to have a strong wireless signal instead of the sketchy unreliable frustrating one i get at the apartment. sigh. I am trying out linux for a change and something about it is really turning me on. Not just that it's not microsoft...it's also that it is reminding me of old computers i used in college but faster.

Anyway I am off to talk to Horace at the UAW and maybe to Mid-town comics to apply for a job. I am happy because I think I may get into grad school at CCNY next fall (if not in art then maybe history or urban anthropology, or math.)

Things are a little slower without a phone...I kind of like that. T-mobile still sucks.

spiderman vs. dora

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I'm trying a new thing where i actually plan my day...I guess I got some things accomplished as a result. I'm spending and hour or two cleaning in the morning then going to the library to check email then doing laundry, going by CCNY to get a new grad school applicaton...visiting with my neighbor...and hanging out at Harmony's with Sam and Jake. Jake even finished all his homework. Amazing! Now they are sleeping and I am updating this blog. Wow...this is an exceptionally boring post. oh well...at least it is something.

Last night Lindon, Jamal, Dave and I went to see the new Pedro Almadovar film, VOLVER. It was funny and sweet-but-not-too-sweet. It has an almost entirely female cast and they were all great. The choice had been between HISTORY BOYS and VOLVER...I am glad we saw VOLVER. It was the right chioce. Still wouldn't mind seeing HISTORY BOYS though.

t-mobile sucks

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Arrgh...the aggrivation continues...t-mobile must die...they disconnected my phone spitefully fast as soon as i told them i had no intention of paying the superhigh bill they charged me with.

Arrrgh...arrgh...arrgh...this on the heals of Strandbooks forcing me to sign their "Agreement and General Release"...basicly signing away my first amendment rights in order to collect unemployment....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr why are businesses so horrible? Are there no good businesses out there that don't try to screw people over?

And that on the heels of two weeks in court with my LL who wants to pretend like he's never heard of rent regulation. or building codes. Arrrgh!

Arrr

sigh...

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I can not believe how angry I was this morning...Now I understand how people can drive planes and trucks into buildings and feel no remorse. I felt so reamed by T-mobile. I feel relieved now to be rid of them. They were not bad for a while but then the abuse started. Now I say, "T-mobile, out of my life!"

Whew! it's a relief really...like ending a relationship gone sour. I have a new lease on life.

This on the heals of Strand and their "Release and General Agreement" in which I am supposed to wave my first amendment rights in exchange for what? A neutral letter and the right to claim unemployment. Arrgh! Thank god for the 12th clause...million dollar clause...the humour clause...the sanity clause. (ha!) ("but i thought there was no sanity clause.")

Anywho...I am home, a little depressed listening to music i borrowed from Jack Young and hoping someone will come over and hang out later thusly giving me a reason to clean the apartment.

Thank you krishna for the great animation link and thank you chris for the empathy and kind words. I love you guys.

GA...can't shake dis code

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ok...so...I am congested, bleeding, and unemployed...but when the sun comes in through the window and hits me like it is right now and I realize that if I want to I can get on the bike and ride through central park, stop in at MoMA...go swimming at the rec center or take the train to coney Island. Life is still beautiful. What I will likely do is go to the laundry mat. Clean the kitchen and get some groceries in case Jamal or Juliana, Chiran, Lindon, or any of the usual suspects show up for dinner.

Bloomberg for arms? fore arms? forms?

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So...I just left housing court and have some new information. Fran in the pro se attorney's office was very patient and explained some new terms like "making a motion", "amending an original answer" and the difference between "decreased rent for decreased services" and "rent abatement" and "constructive eviction".

The "housing part" was fairly painless except that the attorney for "the petitioner"(545 West 146th Street, Inc.) wanted to negotiate but acted like he knew nothing about the case or the condition of the building. Since I had already sent letters to (545 West 146th Street, Inc.) and to Ron Ransom who says he works at (J. Barrington Jackson?) the attorney for the petitioner's office explaining why we withheld rent. (Arrgh!) the judge said the attorney shouldn't be expected to know the condition of the building...so...let's ask his sluml...ahem...client. Mr. Nababi? Ou est Mr. Nabavi? Mrs. Nabani? Mr. Gonzalez? no...the attorney's client was convienently not there.

I called (454 West 146th Street, Inc.) after the hearing and spoke to Mr. (Nababi?), the guy that comes to the apartment a presents himself as the landlord. I wanted to make sure he was aware of the problems that still exist in the apartment and the building. He yelled a lot but finally let me list many of the problems...he hung up before I finished. Then I called HPD and filed complaint #354 3466.

sad thursday

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Ok...I feel somewhat sad...I had heard that Nancy was back from vacation a few days ago so, I called Horace at the UAW office to find out what he found out.

He said. "Well...these people don't want you back...no way. Even Will."

I asked what the official reason was and he said, "All the write ups that you got."

I said that those aren't cummulative. What was the official reason that they gave.

He said, "Well...You know the signing back in early and the talkin to the manager that way."

He said they offered me one weeks pay and the right to file for unemployment.

I said they had offered two weeks pay before.

He said that they said they would tRY to get two weeks but Nancy said "No Way".

I asked why they suspended me instead of just firing me.

He said, "They suspended you. Then they terminated you."

He said he would talk to (Pablo?) when he came back in and see what they could do.

He said he would call me back.

So I am sitting here feeling really sad. I need to get up and clean the apartment.

Seran Wrap?

wow...there are so many congress people...they sure don't look corrupt...I wonder if we will get some nationalized health care soon.
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Estoy aqui en apartmento 47

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Miro television y escribo con el ordinador. Tita duerme?(dorme?). I'm watching telemundo and now It's much later and I'm eating vanilla cremes and feeling kind of sad. I just locked my self out of the apartment when I went to take out the trash...Bernardo was kind enough to open the door for me. Two very neatly dressed people just came by to see the apartment but I could not let them in because I had locked my self out. One was an actress the other a stock broker. Not excatly what I expected. How fateful that we were locked out since the apartment is not exacly presentable today.

Is an apartment not a home?

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Ok so the eleven eleven party was both stimulating and a little overwhelming...the puppet theater that followed was GREAT fun...Today I need to go to Housing court and file a response to the petition for non-payment. I need to file one for my neighbor Harmony too...then I guess I must buy a new firewire cable and go to photoshop class...it is already after 1:00Pm I better go, go, go!

within the boundries of your organism

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I can't find my firewire cable...this is very distressing:(

The sun is out and I'm on my way to the garden to play.
Michelle said we recieved 800 bulbs from somewhere.
Daffodils, I think.

Vamos a ver!

reaching across the aisle

sitting at Harmony's house...watching sponge bob square pants...Jake and Samantha helped me color this picture in photoshop while I wait for my laundry to dry.

bitter end, toast w/beans, housing court

Is this really happening??? Talk about a velvet revolution...non?

Today feels like the dawn of something...or the fall of something.
Last night Krishna, Lindon and I went to see some live music at
the Bitter End...I was a little bittermyself having a headcold and
sour about the two drink minimum...what is up with that?
Krishna made toast with (pink?)beans for breakfast and then
It was off to center street to see if the [545 W 146 ST (Inc?)Corp]
had filed non-payment papers yet. It was very rainy and I hung
out and read the paper a while before coming home. It looks
like something happened to the bathroom light while I was away.

26 miles

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Hey. so it's mid-term election eve and to be honest I really haven't done my homework. My days of voting a straight democratic ticket are over. I am so disappointed with millionaires for Kerry...I just can't vote Democrat in good conscience. I doesn't feel right. Luckily It doesn't really make a difference in this neighborhood. The Dems seem to have a lock on things here. So I can vote for the greenest, most socalistic outsiders without worrying that I might be wasting a vote.

But who are the canidates? Clinton? Rangle? I'm embarrassed to say I don't really know my green party comrades here. ok google.

http://www.gp.org/

http://www.spnyc.org/main/

nyc ballots

re-new, re-use, recycle

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Monday. Last night I drempt (dreamed?) that Jamal, Dave, and I wrote, directed and starred in a short film about writing, directing and starring in a film. Ha! C'est l'ile des reves!

In other news:

Three weeks later, I am still suspended from my job at Strand books. I guess I will call Horace today and ask him if there is a known or a stated reason for this yet.

Saturday I hosted another dinner party here at 545 W 146 st.

Did I mention that Cat Scientist was here in NYC on Halloween and they were awesome?

Adil, the new french roomate moved to a place up around 171 St.

I was looking at Sculpture magazine this morning...one that Dave left here...Thinking about materials and art making processes reminded me to look into recycling in the city. Columbus had a really great Re-use center called Re: Art. Often Habitat for Humanity has Re-use/Restore/ Recycling centers too. I want to find out what there is in the NYC area to facilitate recycling and re-using materials.

I want to build some stuff but would like to re: use something rather than go to Home Despot and buy wood.

http://www.solcomhouse.com/recycling.html

borrowed time, over time, lost time

"uPon intEnt on not occuR at all 'new technology' technological motiFs ' prOblem gRowth requires the Musicis endeAvors to for all ' eNterprises are subjeCt to limitations ' tEchnology we are heading for cottage"--JC
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Plus mieux, au mieux...say, "Mew?"

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So...Tuesday I did go to the UAW offices. I collected my thoughts and the papers from Strand, various warnings and suspension papers. Horace and I talked and eventually Nancy and Fred and someone who I guess was a lawyer showed up. Nancy and Fred looked happy and clean. I thought we might all sit down and have a few laughs...a drink, maybe toast to future happiness. Horace went to greet the party. Then Bob O. showed up. I was really glad to see him.

Bob and I sat and talked to Horace for a bit. Nancy and Fred went into another room with the lawyer. As Horace and Bob talked, I realized that Bob was there apparently because he also had a grievence with Strandbooks. I remembered his suspension a few months back. Horace left and Bob and I talked for a bit. We waited for Monique form the third floor. Monique came in and told us about how Nancy had gotten angry with her because she had been slow in getting Nancy's lunch one day so she had asked Nancy to not use her that way. Apparently, Nancy asked her the very next day to go get her lunch and she refused. She had higher priority work to do. I guess Nancy disagreed.

Bob and Monique were called in to meet with the Basses. I waited expecting to be called in. Oddly I was not nervous. I felt like I had good points to argue against being harrassed and fired. One of the UAW workers showed me a book and asked if I had read it. It was a story about a man that had twice died and lived to tell about it.

I looked at the book. I listened to him describe the amazing tale. Then he asked if I had heard of Si Babba (sp?). This was one a really wonderful thing he had asked. He reminded me so much of John Piper, my neighbor at Milo. John was always finding me when I was down and lifting my spirits by talking about hopeful things. He also talked about Si Babba (sp? Sigh Babba?).

After that I was in sort of a happy day dream thinking about how great John Piper was and how much this person reminded me of John (Jack) Piper. Then Pablo called me into his office. He sighed and ruffled some papers and said they wanted to fire me. My little bubble of bliss burst.

I guess I had convinced my self that the Basses were just having some fun at my expense and would call me in to say, "Just kidding." We think you are GREAT, Jennifer "Candide" Johnson. Thanks for being a good sport. How 'bout a raise?" Then we would lift our glasses and toast to a happy and prosperous future for all.

Instead, Pablo and Horace broke the news that the Basses would like me out of their lives and were prepared to offer me the right to file for Unemployment. Wow!

I flipped. How could they "offer me the right to file for unemployment"?

Was that their right to offer or withhold such a thing?

Pablo said yes.

He said he was legally bound to inform me that I could accept this offer (I hadn't let him finish) of unemployment and two weeks pay...or I could ask for (arbitration?) which could take a long time. It was up to me.

I asked how long I had to decide. Horace said he would try one more time to talk to them and would call me Thursday--oh shit! I'm late!

I have to get dressed and run to the garden!

to be continued!

The Armless Swimmer

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Dance lot Talk a lot Dance a lot Talk a lot there is good news!
There is a band that sounds an aweful lotlike the Horsies:

Cat Science!

and they are playing TONIGHT!! Halloween night!
And I wanted to dress up like a cat anyway!!!!!

and they will be at the Trash Bar in Brooklyn.

What a perfect way to celebrate my un-suspension
from the bookstore. Today at one I am meeting with Horace
and someone ( a lawyer?) from Strandbooks at the UAW office.

I'm not sure what will happen there but I will be happy either way
if I can dress up and go dancing afterwards!!

Thanks, Steve...and Happy 29th!

Blame society productions

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Ha ha...krishna just showed me this funny video.

I'm off to photoshop class. Happy halloween!

Ancestors, Water People, and Heroes

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Feeling very sleepy and lazy. Yesterday I took a long walk from 146st down to west 4th st..making several stops on the way. Jackie Robinson Park, LESPFCU, the UU church on 79th st., MNN, MOMA, Coliseum Books...I met Kathy Gaskins and Ryan M. at the Waverly Diner. We may go out again tonight, but I think I will take the train this time.

appeal for redress

L. H. O. O. Q.
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Start the war on villification and obsfucation!!
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another another green world?

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The march twards cleaning the apartment continues. This morning I changed a lightbulb. While I have the ladder (la escalera de tijera?) I'm going to try to install this bike hook I got from the container store. It sounds easy no?

I also downloaded a thirty day trial version of photoshop. This way I can practice during the week what I learn in the monday night photoshop class. It's all very exciting.

So far I have a small stack of books to give away...now to attack the clothes!

cold feet tuesday radio verified
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write, right, you are bloody well

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ok...so I'm home today with the intention to clean and organize this space to make it a bit more habitable. That has led me to going through all these books to see if I can give some away. It is a slow process because I occasionally feel I should read or do reasearch on the book to see if I can part with if. After all I must have brought it home for a reason, non?

Let's start with Wanda Coleman-A War of the Eyes and Other Stories. I guess I was attracted to the Black Sparrow Press label and encouraged by the $1.00 price tag. I haven't opened it yet. I think it's a keeper since I promised myself to try to read more women authors.

What about Operating Grants for Nonprofit Orginizations? I paid good money for this back in 2001. Has the freshness dating expired? Maybe so, but it seems like a good reference book if I can find some people who want to start an arts non-profit organization. Or if we need $$$ for serenity gardens. I guess that's a keeper too.


Women and the Making of the Modern House

Vocal Improvisation in the Be-Bop Idiom vol 1: A Rhythmic Approach

George Grosz Ecce Homo

This could take a while.

No Booths Pizza

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Check out his u tube video discussion. There are over seven hundred comments! I haven't read them all but I'm finding them interesting. There are some good points being made regarding racial prejudice and cultural difference. There are questions about the viability of film photography in a digital world and

Some comments are so horrible/rude, I am sure the poster is being incendiary(sp?)...trying to get people riled up. Or maybe sarcastic. At least I hope so.

Anyway...Friday I went to see Horace at the UAW local 2179 office about my free 14day trial period-I mean my indefinate suspension pending investigation. He said that they want to fire me.

I am not sure exactly who "they" are. Nancy Bass? Richard Devereaux(sp?)? Brian, Bibbi, and Taylor? My co-union members?

I could only ask, "Why?"

Why do They want to fire me? Because I wrote on the break timesheet "4:52" when it was actually 4:47?

Because I said "Please don't be a prick." to Taylor?

These seem like minor offenses to me.

Horace and I discussed the matter with Pablo Valcarcel (car sell?) the local president.

I told Horace and Pablo that I guess I didn't want to be there if I was not wanted. But I would like to know why "they" want to fire me.

Anyway, Horace and Pablo seemed to agree that these may not be firing (firable?)offences. Horace wondered what was being investigated. In a week, what has been discovered? What will be discovered in following weeks. I wondered that too. Horace said he would go back and talk to the lawyer(s?) and call me later.

I mentioned that I had previously requested vacation time for this upcoming week. I wasn't sure if I should stick around or go away on vacation as planned. Pablo said that if I had vacation scheduled, they would have to give it to me.

I don't feel like a can afford to travel now. Things seem far too un-settled here to go anywhere. I guess I will spend this week cleaning the apartment and looking for a roomate.

Last night I went to a performance at the Brecht Forum with Dave, Jamal, Lindon, Mitch, and Alex. Afterwards we sat in Pizza Booth and joked about making a film titled BOOTH, about a pizza parlor with no public restrooms and oddly, no booths.

coffee bean in the head

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SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSo...I had trouble sleeping because of the 1/2 liter of coffee i drank last night when I went down to 54st to meet Roussina nad Mitch. We didn't get into see the Colbert Report but instead walked around to Columbus Circle and through the Time-Warner (Lincoln Center?) building and into Borders Books...where we looked at calanders, and magazines and listened to music.

This morning in my caffinated non-sleep I was thinking about NYC. Doing a little reckoning. Trying to justify my existance here. I have long maintained that this is a sort of bizzaro world where my previous expectations of cause and effect don't really apply.

It makes for difficult storytelling when the listener is expecting things to make sense because what I come up with is a string of events with no causal relationship. (cause unknown) All I can do is wonder what bizzare thing will happen next. Or make wild long winded speculations. Sometimes I try to test things to see if I can cause something. Like trying to organize a tenants association. Or help a homeless person.

The tenant organizing here at 545 was akin to bouncing a flat basketball. When I was organizing with UHAB it was like either like bouncing a flat basketball or a superball. Eventually I gave up. or lost the ball. It seems now that tenant and community organizing are best done in slow motion. My few experiences "helping" homeless people might be compared to taking acid then hittingoneself with a bat...a live bat-not a baseball bat.

Lately I've been trying to play the constant. Doing things as regularly and predictably as I can and looking around a bit to see if I can see causes and effects happening. Sometimes I think I see a cause or an effect out of the corner of my eye, like a fishing line on a star fighter or a mouse at Strandbooks but its only there for and instant. Maybe I need to be stiller...I mean: more still.

I talked to Horace from UAW local 2179 yesterday. He said he went to the store to talk to Fred, Fred said he didn't know anything about it, so they called in Bibbi. Bibbi said it was all Nancy's doing. He talked to Nancy. She said he would have to talk to the lawyer. He talked to the lawyer.

Now I am supposed be at the UAW office at noon to meet with Horace and the lawyer. I don't know if it is Nancy's lawyer or the UAW lawyer. I guess I will find out.

le mort joyeux

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This is day five of my third suspension from Strandbooks...sigh...It's good that I had the time off since it gave me time to write a letter to 545 W 146 INC. ...ugh...I guess I have to go to housing court soon. This is all very draining...this...uh...defending one's self. I can see why people hire lawyers to do this type of thing.

I feel myself coming down with something...depression or the flu or something.

Yesterday, I had a beer with Kumal who was very psyched about his new job. Then I made Krishna and Lindon miss the free screening of running with scissors.

It was a dark and stormy night. We went to the dumpling resturaunt across the street from home depot. They have amazing hot chocolate dumplings there. Krishna, Lindon, Nick, and I started a band. again.

sigh...sigh...heavy sigh...I wonder if Horace or Rebecca or Will will call and let me know the results of THE INVESTIGATION into my conduct. On the totally plus side I had time to go to a photoshop class on Monday. The class was way better than I expected. AND it was in the UNITEHERE building across from FIT. I've wanted to go into that building. I also got to see inside the lithographers union building. Events like this remind me that New York City is still amazing and there is much left to see and learn here.

what does "spic" mean?

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so I'm sitting here crossed legged on the futon...half watching T.V....half trying to figure out my situation. My claims on my job and my home. My alternatives. There is a good show on IFC called Girls Town.

Saturday I was suspended from work "pending investigation". I'm not sure what this means other than I had time to go to Jackson heights with Krishna yesterday and hang out with Lindon B., sleep in the sun with Tita, and hang out with my neighbor, Harmony today. Harmony is practicing to be an EMT. Shetook my blood pressure (115/70?).

My electricity and internet are working. We have warmish running water. I haven't paid rent since July when Bernardo, Eric, Z and I decided to stop paying since the conditions were so bad here and [545 W 146 ST INC.] was not responding to our calls. Now the hole in the bathroom ceiling is fixed but Bernardo and I can not seem to have conversation without yelling accusations and insults at each other so we are stuck in a stalemate regarding the rent, bills, and empty room. As we wait...the overdue rent accumulates. I am afraid I or we may end up in court with each other and the landlord.

Now there is a short Rosie Perez doc about Puerto Rico on IFC. I'm really interested. I never thought much about Puerto Rico until I moved here. As I am listening to this I am realizing something about music and language and the mechinism of the pun...puns and the cousin of the pun...I'm not sure what it is called when something can be said in a way that it has two or more meanings that cross languages and change depending on the phyche of the listener...i don't think it is quite the same thing as a pun...maybe a super pun or pun to the second power.

I am waiting to hear another example of it on tv...still waiting...ok...I'll get back to you on this.

Tomorrow I am going to the UAW office again with Rebecca to find out what to do. I am glad Bob O. was around to advise me. Otherwise I would be extreamly clueless.

Vamos a ver.

bro, Bro, brug, die Brucke

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Last night Krishna and I went to a celebration of the 20th anniversary of F.A.I.R.
Tom Tomorrow of This Modern World; Amy Goodman of Democracy Now; Barbara Ehrenreich author of Nickel and Dimed; and other reporters from both the left and the liberal left (ha!)spoke and joked about challenging factual inaccuracy, documenting, and exploring dissenting opinions.

I was more impressed with Barbara Eherinreich than I thought I would be. She was funny and to the point when she said she acknowleged biological differences between men and women...by some (biological?) cause which we have yet to understand...men are ten times more likely than women to become NY Times reporters.

skatalogical broken glass dinner for eight

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I feel sad and a little afraid about my roomate situation. Bernardo and Eric have decided to not cooperate with me. I think it is Bernardo who leaves his dirty dishes in the sink and Eric who leaves horrible smelling things in garbage bags in the middle of the kitchen floor and pees in places other than the toilet, but I really don't know why.

I've been trying to have dinner parties on saturday nights. Last saturday I rushed home from work to do last minute cleaning and make dinner and found the power was still out from the night before when Bernardo got mad because we disagreed about who owed who money and decided to call me a bitch and remove the fuses. I went into my dark bedroom to look for a match to light a candle and tripped over a pile of dirty dishes...Bernardo's dirty dishes.

I was pretty pissed that someone had let themselves into my room and done this and went to knock on Bernardo's door. No answer. Arrgh...Quickly, still thinking about the people who were supposed to arrive any minute, started cleaning the pile of stuff off the carpet. I heard Bernardo come home and went to yell about how mad I was. I think I was yelling, "Stay out of my room!" or something like that. Bernardo responded not with..."I didn't go into your room." but rather, "You're crazy, you sstupid bitch. Don't move Tita's litterbox! You should be in a hospital!"
Or something to that effect. I couldn't really hear because I was yelling "Stay out of my room!"
Then, for effect and to drive home the point...I threw one of the already broken dirty dishes that had been placed on my floor, past Bernardo and at the metal front door to the apartment.

Bernardo went into his room and shut the door but continued to yell about how stupid and crazy I am. I yelled back about I would like for him to stay out of my room, then went back to cleaning in the dark. There was more yelling and dish throwing, including Bernardo yelling "I'm going to call the cops." and me yelling "Call the cops." as I looked for my keys so I could go to the store to get some candles.

Suprisingly, this ended with a rather nice candle lit dinner. After the police came and the reports were made, Lindon, Adi, Jamie, Jamal, and I sat in what Bernardo has dubbed "Tita's room"aka the dinning room and drank some red wine and ate brie and salad.

Now in the after math I contemplate planning another dinner for Saturday...hmmmm...What's that smell? Oh I guess somehow the fridge lost power and everything in it is rotten. I'm thinking about becoming vegan. Can I divorce my roomate? sigh...I'm supposed to go to the UAW office with Rebecca today to talk to them about electing shop stewards and getting copies of the last two contracts and finding out if we can take a field trip to a printing press...I guess I'll clean the fridge...and bike downtown, maybe stop at MOMA it's a beautiful day.